Today Adam and I went on what I consider to be a VERY long bike ride- 32 miles to be exact. Adam used to race mountain bikes in Colorado so he barely broke a sweat, but as for me, I am sore and tired, but it was a wonderful day! As I was trucking along somewhere around mile 25, I started to feel real fatigue set in- my muscles were aching and I was just plain tired of riding. In an effort to take focus my attention on something other than my current plight, I allowed my mind to to wander to what it tends to wander to every spare moment of every day...the future Dorband's and adoption. Right now in the process feels a lot like mile 25 today and I'm sure there are other families who can relate:) We are near-ish to the end, but not close enough to see it just yet. There is so much joy and anticipation in this whole journey, but it can indeed be wearing and tiring. While the pedals of my bike turned round and round, I kept hearing the lyrics to a song that I wrote a while back...the bridge says, "I need you, I need you, I need you- Jesus, I trust you, I trust you, I trust you with my life." I do trust God, but then again, I need Him to help me in my unbelief. Thankfully He is so patient and I know He loves our kids even more than we do!
Psalm 103
1 Praise the LORD, O my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
2 Praise the LORD, O my soul,
and forget not all his benefits-
3 who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
4 who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
5 who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's.
Remember I asked you if you were pregnant? Well... kind of you are. When you're in your 6-7th month, you know that babies is cooking in there good, you are tired, you can't wait to hold the life that God has intended for you to care for. You know that the he's & she's has to stay in there but you can't wait! You know what's best, but you want the pot of God (yes that's what I meant) at the end of the glorious rainbow (God's promise reminder).
ReplyDeleteYou're almost there! I can't beleive it! I'm excited for you! I can't wait to replace the pictures of the children I took off hte internet to have a visual of your babies and replace it with a picture of the REAL BABIES DORBAND!! woo hoo!
He has given you the desires of your heart so that He (and Him alone) can fulfill them!
LOVING YOU!